Is it really possible to unburden yourself of unwanted emotional baggage, throw it into a Volcano and start on the next chapter of your life??
I frigin' hope so...
Day One of my blog and I find myself in the beautiful surrounds of Hawaii...Lucky, yes I know.
I have been a a journey for some time now, travelling and living abroad for 8 and a half years... I have been fortunate to see and experience some amazing things, but I still feel like I am searching!!"£$%^
I have read many books in my search for answers, yes, I have read the Alchemist, Siddaratha, The old man and the sea, Ishmael... I have soaked up words and words, but still feel the need to search...
What am I searching for?... that too is another great question!
I don't really know. I have loads of questions, with only a few answers.
Ideally, I want to find some balance, some harmony, some joy... Don't get me wrong, I know I am on the roller coaster of life (my favourite line from the parenthood movie), and have days when i experience those things in abundance.... but still I search as my soul tells me it is my journey...
Over the next couple of months I will be venturing to the Big Island of Hawaii, Australia and then India... For some reason, my heart is drawn to India, it has been for a long time... so at age 36... I am setting sail there to explore....Now I am a 5.11", voluptuous blonde woman, with green eyes, from a professional background (helping people)... so I figure, I am not going to just blend in, I will not be able to control the situation.. this is what i find most daunting and most liberating...
I am sure there will be plenty for me to find...that will be both of those things!
In the meantime... I am going to try and unravel myself from some of heaviness of the emotions I feel, by heading to a volcano and throwing some of the old reverie I no longer need to carry into the great open crater, where the energy I use in re-living, over and over, can be laid to rest... We all have our baggage, granted, but I am so tired of carrying mine... so lobb it into the volcano I say
I am hoping that the Volcano can take it...
My aim on this part of my journey, is to just let go... control freak part of me will be thrown into the fiery depths of Hawaii...
cross your fingers for me...
I look forward to this adventure... and any tips that people are able to share with me along the way... More is needed to be said (what are these things that are being thrown into the volcano?), but I guess over time, that will come to these pages...
Aloha for now... and please wish me luck
Rubygirl out xxx
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